Lying here on my bunk in federal prison, I often wonder where I went wrong. Why haven’t I been able to find that one true perfect love? Where is my meant-to-be life long companion? And most importantly … is there still hope and a chance for me? Staring out my cell window at a lover’s moon, I look into my heart for inspiration, encouragement and answers. I know what I want. And I know what I need. I need a lover who can make my life more complete than I ever dreamed it could be. A woman, to see her, would totally and completely take my breath away! A beauty with whom I can spend countless hours of special togetherness and never have to worry she’ll stray. Someone I can love and share my wildest dreams.

Surely she’s out there I say. The desire of my heart’s longing, standing at the lake’s edge, ready to shout at the fullness of a bright summer night’s moon. A beautiful goddess willing to dance this dance with me, kiss a passionate kiss, and spend the rest of her life happy standing in the center of the fire. Somewhere out there, I know she’s looking at this very same moon at this very same moment. Oh how I need her! The woman with the magic touch, a warm heart and an undying devotion for me and only me. Yes, she’s out there somewhere. A magical lover who’ll come to my rescue and save me from a continued life of loneliness and despair. A woman who’ll love me and tell me how much she really cares. Someone I can love, cherish, and adore. A love that will grow stronger every day.

Where is she? In which realm and state of mind does she exist? I want to know what true love is. To hold her hand, put my arms around her waist, to look into her eyes and know she’s the one and only one. To share a love that’s so rare, so unbelievable, so unimaginable that no one could ever fathom it to be true. Where is this woman of my dreams? The one I’ve known and dreamed about since I was a little boy. My lover, best friend and confidante. The love of my life I can talk to in bed whispering, “I love you” in her ear. My forever friend who I can kiss on the cheek, hug her tight and cover her before she sleeps. The woman I can watch sleep sound staring at her breasts as they heave. My sweetheart of who I will never say goodbye. Someone I can love, eternal … everlasting on.

Will I know her by the special way she looks at me or the awesome way she smiles? Will it be love at first sight or will I not know I love her until she turns to walk away? All I know is, she must be out there somewhere waiting on me. A woman who can knock me out with those American thighs! A ravishing beauty who I can fall in love with, be in love with, and love until the day darkness finally overcomes me. As clouds move in to partially obscure the light of the moon, I can see her shape, her entity and her angelic reflection shining through. She’s the most stunningly beautiful creature on earth in body, heart, spirit and soul! And I can’t wait to tell her how much I love and adore her and really care. To hug her and kiss her, feel the softness of her skin and enjoy the perfume from between her breasts. Someone I can love and make hot passionate love to each and every night.

Who is she? Do I already know her name? Have I talked to her, heard her sexy voice, so unique, soft spoken and clear? Does she know who she is yet simply hasn’t came forth to say? Oh how I long to see the way she looks in tight jeans or a short skirt and heels. To watch her blush when I run the palm of my hand up the inside of her thighs. To feel her heart skip a beat when she presses her body close to mine. Oh what a powerful feeling this emotion called love! I can’t wait to send her roses, open her car door and pull out her chair to be seated for dinner and a fine bottle of wine. And to lie in front of a burning fireplace afterward on a bearskin rug kissing and cuddling ’til dawn. Stroking her hair, the heat from my breath making the little hairs stand up on the back of her neck. Someone I can love and be with for the rest of my mortal days.

Yes, I need her! I really and truly do! As soon as I leave this place I want to put a ring on her finger, marry her and give her my last name. Someone to love, cherish, protect and adore. A woman to grow old with and to forever call my own. A true blue lover who only I can drive insane! No man on earth could ever love her the way I do. No man has and no man ever will. For the love I possess in my heart for this special woman is for her and only her. With age comes wisdom and my heart is getting old. I must find my soul mate! Or with luck, maybe she’ll find me. In all of this, I know one thing is for sure. My heart and mind eat at me everyday! The blood in my veins pump warm! I know, I know, I know without a doubt! Someone to love and be loved is out there! And, she’s probably reading this right now. I need her! I need you! Forever more! I am Tripper. The hopeful romantic! Better Days!